I think that talking to all u out there will be fun and i might be cured just by talking to you all.I have a confession to make btw . When Nighat Aunt drowned herself and i was blamed 4 everything , it really was my fault b/c i went through her stuff that day and since i was only 8 years old back then ... i did probably create a mess out of her stuff . so when in the evening dad came ... she created a fuss over it and hit me ... this made him angry and he kicked her and hit her back . that night she left angry and 4 dayz latter we found he body washed ashore on Sea View . Well imagine who got blamed 4 her death ..... Well I'll tell u that those aunts of mine who came from US for her funeral did all they could to molest me .. but i was just 8 .....