I wish i could turn back time . The memories of the past 6 years are wid me all the time and only i know that they're not just memories but nightmares .Its hard to forget those years but i pray to God that He grants me the strength to accept what i cannot change .

Phuppoo , amman , abbu , ammi ... yeh sab loge kissi na kissi tarhan apnay apnay naqsh choor rahay hain ....Mummy prefered staying with us here in karachi rather than NJ . She was worried about us .She has already sacrificed a lot in life for us and i cannot help but feel sorry for her. I cannot do a lot on my part but ive gone throught this overhaul ... this turning new leaf thing just for her and she realizes that . I will do anything for her and i keep reminding myself this and now all i think before doing anything is that what would she think and how would it reflect on her ...I cannot give her back the time she spent gulping down amman'z criticism . I cannot give her back the time that she went through after Nighatz death ..(Nighat's Death) .I wish i was old enough to atleast stand by her but what can a 8 year old kid do . Nothing . Nothing at all . But now im glad that ammi'z happy . Abbuz in NJ and that meanz no jhagraz and stuff . I know shez happy but i sometimes find her sitting and thinking . I shiver to even imagine what shez thinking because that can be anything . Anything at all .Please lemme be the one . Please lemme please her .