Ammi will be leaving for US in two weeks time . She has to complete her citizenship procedure and she’ll probably be staying there for a couple of months . She told me to look for a place to stay .We haven’t spoken in days now . It started on the 9th of Moharram and the impasse still exists . I don’t wanna get in to the background cause its not gonna change anything . I do miss not talking to her but its alrite I guess . I can be an ass too .


I told Rekha whatever she wanted to hear . I wont say anything anymore . Enough .


Sabeen called . She is in town . Will meet her soon .


I met momal last week . She’s in a fix . She is in a relationship where she is getting married to a guy who thinks she is an angel .She should’ve told him something about herself , just so that she can say he did know … . An angel ,She cannot mime all her life for him .. But she wants him . She says and She is happy about it .She will live in denial her whole life . I felt bad after I met her . I hope and plan to not meet her because I feel responsible for a lot of things . I didn’t stop her when she was transforming into this creature and now the metamorphosis is complete . She will never be the same again .She will never breath freely . She will always live this lie . I know this because Ive been living a lie half my life . I try to be someone im really am not .Im not tough and I suck at it . Trust me it doesn’t work . This will haunt her for the rest of her life and I already feel sorry for her . I just hope her husband doesn’t find out about her . I may be wrong about this altogether waisay .Kiswer thinks im rite and even she is finding it hard to believe yet I must admit it’s a bold step on her part . At the end of the day , you cant stop em from doing what they want ..rite ..I find myself praying for her even though I feel she doesn’t merit it anymore …


I notice so many things in a day . We all do .. don’t we . How many times have u seen people around you living a lie al their life . Living in denial . Its really not this simple . One stands to loose so much if he doesn’t reach his potential . And I don’t mean potential literally . I mean if you know what you MUST have in your life and you still don’t keep it , you loose . How can we live like this , sometimes I wonder ? . My dad still misses not going back to UK . My mom still talks about her friends from college . My aunt still regrets not marrying Rasheed uncle . Its so weird . How can people keep making mistakes . And how can they keep telling themselves that its ok . I really find this aspect of homo sapiens fascinating . Add to this the uncertainty in life , and there you have it . A soap . A blockbuster .funny …


I realized something … even though I might’ve saved ‘some’ from annihilation , some just do not want a hand to pull em back . They’d rather burn the hand .


Life goes on .