I wrote a long email for you but then i realized that I am prohibited by YOU to initiate any contact .I felt that you needed me to hold you by any means necessary . Or may be im just putting this one on you . :( … I hear/feel you are in a fix . I wish I had wings .


The worst news of this year abhi tak is that my dad is coming back instead of mom . This is a catastrophe . It will be a massacre . I just know it . And for those who have been following this heretic’s life , you know this spells disaster . But I am already thinking of ways out .If anyone of you can keep a paying guest , plz email me . I need a place to stay asap .


I went to work after two weeks to give in my medical certificate from Agha Khan hospital which huma was kind enough to drop at my house .Maimoona looked at it and said that I need to attach a letter with it . Not only did I not attach a letter , I took it back and told her that id be back the next day . I haven’t gone to work ever since . This was three days ago . I will go back but probably from Monday . My back hurts like hell . This i did not anticipate before the agha khan thingy came in . I haven’t slept in 48 hours now and I cannot seem to get any sleep in the night . I even tried counting sheep damnit . But it doesn’t seem to work . I think I have to change my mattress again . The fever has subsided but it gets aggravated by the nasal operation that I had . It is especially worse in the morning .


Bibi khaala is coming to stay wiht her kids and she is one person who has been a "tv ki nowkree aint good enough b/c it spoils the person" khatoon . Allah malik hai .