As I sat on the ja-e-namaz , I prayed for those who have been a significant part of my life . For those who have effected my thinking , my rationale and my acts in one manner or the other .


I prayed for my mom to be strong and resolute . I prayed that she stands tall by my father during these trying times . He is working hard in the US and I prayed that for whatever limited time she gets to spend with him there , she makes it easier for him in any manner she can . I also prayed that they resolve their differences and finally see that their eldest son loves them even through he has an independent heart and ends up deliberating on a different level altogether . I prayed for my father for his health and that HE gives both of them the happiness that a good God fearing and hardworking couple deserves . I prayed that they realize their son’s contribution in this family , not consider him a hireling and not let gossip determine his fate through them because he needs their prayers , badly. I prayed that they understand him and appreciate the diversity he brings to their family not only by his disposition but also by his perseverance to succeed and survive and finally one day by their graces and provide for him in whatever little means he can.


I prayed for my sibs that they realize the love their eldest brother has for them , notwithstanding the past assumptions .I prayed for murtaza that he does not follow in the footsteps of the unwise and stops being himself . I prayed that he remains true to his bhai’s spirit . I prayed that HE knocks some sense into my aunts and uncles , khaalaaz and khaalooz yada yada’s p-brains and that HE shields me from their nonsense irrational critiques which tend to throw me off badly . I prayed that I face this prejudiced world’s judgments with a smile and not react .


I prayed for momo that she has a happy life and realize the good in her which she has erroneously neglected in the recent past . I prayed that she appreciates life the way it deserves . I prayed that she gets to live a more meaningful life now that she’ll inshallah be getting married soon to the man of her dreams . I prayed for sabeen that she realizes the harm she does to herself by not standing up for herself . I prayed that leads a life unlike that of her relative’s . I prayed that ambreen understands that life isn’t always fair and thus she’d actually get to be the amazing person she is destined to be .I prayed that she moves on and finds the man of her dreams . Within reason ofcourse . I prayed that Huma also finds someone within reason and that she realizes the incredible opportunity destiny has given her to get on top of everything .


I prayed for sam that she gets the courage and determination to be the best that she can be and realizes all her dreams .I prayed that her family accepts her the way she wants to be accepted and loved. I prayed that her younger sister understands her and they develop a relationship that sam wants .I prayed that HE makes everything easy for her all the way . I prayed that she leads a content , happy and complete life .


In the end I prayed for myself . I begged forgiveness for my sins and for not being content with what HE does for me . Im blessed in every manner . I prayed for strength to pull myself out of these times . I prayed that I don’t forget HIM and keep coming back to him EVEN when im not in shit .And then I thanked HIM for making me the way I am .