Your thought allows you to believe in the unequal contest of the strong against the weak, and in the tricking of the simple by the subtle ones. My thought creates in me the desire to till the earth with my hoe, and harvest the crops with my sickle, and build my home with stones and mortar, and weave my raiment with woollen and linen threads. Your thought urges you to marry wealth and notability. Mine commends self-reliance. Your thought advocates fame and show. Mine counsels me and implores me to cast aside notoriety and treat it like a grain of sand cast upon the shore of eternity. Your thought instils in your heart arrogance and superiority. Mine plants within me love for peace and the desire for independence. Your thought begets dreams of palaces with furniture of sandalwood studded with jewels, and beds made of twisted silk threads. My thought speaks softly in my ears, "Be clean in body and spirit even if you have nowhere to lay your head." Your thought makes you aspire to titles and offices. Mine exhorts me to humble service.
You have your thought and I have mine.
Determination has its rewards and varies from task to task . Convention might prove otherwise but the past few days have proved one thing . When there is no foundation and no damage control , even the slightest of pricks can be fatal . Case in point , Titanic .
In a nutshell , some one hacked into my email accounts , sam’s email accounts . This someone had to have access to sam’s diary already . This access could’ve been facilitated by either sam’s family or a friend who had access to her diary .This time the hacker was assigned a task , a purpose . If they couldn’t deter us the right way , they decided to hit below the belt. And boy did they hit in the groins . They were looking for dirt and they found it . And then they made it look as if it were an accident .
The hacker went through my email accounts . Through sam’s email accounts . I had disregarded the emails that talked about ‘N’ and Sam . With no apparent dent here , they worked on sam . It was not momo afterall .I spoke to her yesterday . She denied knowing anything about it . She was clueless .I could tell by her response that she was as surprised about it as I was a week ago . She said that she never spoke to anyone about her past life .I wonder why she was dragged in this to begin with .However she told me that she doesn’t wanna be involved and that sam should’ve had more faith in me . I told her to change her email address just in case the hacker decides to pull her into it . I hope it doesn’t come to that . Momo made sense and now its all becoming clearer . She said that I have to think with a cool head . I have to admit , till this time I was in no mood to point fingers . But she made sense . I cannot sit now . Sam’s family knew everything already . They knew that if they TELL her to give up , she wont . Instead they forwarded me some dirt on her . This was almost half a year ago . I didn’t pay any heed to it . They knew about my diary . They knew about her diary .They got someone to hack into all our accounts , then they used some of my past emails , put em together with a little lie , fabricated a character and this character used momo’s name to indulge sam’s insecurities . They knew I wouldn’t want momo involved and they were right .
This fabricated character is my hero . The alleged name is “Ayesha Amin Khan” . I think it is a man afterall . However what really worked was the claim that ive been unfaithful . Obviously the hacker had no proof but it doesn’t matter . The damage is done .Even my diary was attacked claiming it has ulterior motives .The thing is that this is not a regular blog . This is catharsis for me . Those who want to see ulterior motives see nothing else . Those who want to see a sincere struggle , they don’t see no ulterior motives . So this diary is like a mirror .You see it through your own past experiences . In the hacker’s case , they used it to drive nails into sam’s insecurities . Two years ago .,she came to me herself , wanting to change things . Obviously she was shocked when someone questioned her intentions . Nevertheless , two weeks ago , I asked her to investigate it all at her ease .I should never have done this .I shouldn’t have sent her in alone .When she was here , she would constantly tell me that Distance matters to her a lot and that if such a situation ever occurred , she’d believe those around her . She is very reactive , I know this aswell .She had warned me about this all . Even when I chatted with her a few days ago for the first time ever since she went back , she mentioned this . She again repeated that being away made her think things . I just didn’t realize that in such an event , she’d totally refuse logic and hearsay would prevail . After all this all does boil down to trust. I didn’t realize that those who she referred to whenever she is in a fix can hand her in . .Khair the hack worked . They emailed a bunch of people from my contacts so that it will look legitimate . They deleted sam’s emails from my accounts , lucky for me , I had already forwarded everything to my worldcall account . This can be accessed only from worldcall .
Having done all of this they waited and watched their spectacle kick in .All of those who they emailed responded to me . Even sam . They didn’t email nareeman because they figured she’s already married so why bother . Obviously none of them believed them , they made a conscious effort to believe me rather than a person who claimed to be their friend and came out of no where .They knew me and they simply dismissed the emails . Sam however played right into all .The hacker had all her family’s email addresses and the hacker was told specific information about sam’s past to be included in the emails . Anyone can see through it , things like her previous marriage proposals , experiences , references to past liaisons n stuff . They could’ve asked politely . Khair , they will never speak the truth because they are not strong enough to face the consequences . Especially now .Whether sam believed it all before or not , is irrelevant . She does believe now .
TODAY 
