Today was the most eventful day of this month so far . a bunch of highs and lows and I was left gasping for more . I realized that I havent been wrong at all in everything that has happened . And I also did good in the end . I may have let the culprit off the hook but I wouldn’t want to do anything about it . Because people will ultimately believe what they want to .


Lets talk about my day .


I got to work early because I had expected to get the script done today . Aminah was unwell and didn’t show up . SO it started off a little slow . She called around 1 to ask if I wanted her to come in the second half . I told her to rest and that we’d start early next day .I desperately wanted to run away from everything or hide myself behind work .It was either this or the fact that I had decided to remove the entry where I had solved the mystery .I didn’t get the time to do it and people started coming in for auditions . Sam wanted me to remove the entry . And now I know why .. ??? . Ayesha wrote to huma today .When I read ayesha’s threat mail along with her chat with sam , I had to smile . It talked about sects and being shia and sunniz . I didn’t know people are still biased about this shit . Thus it started becoming clearer to me . Ayesha bibi is more pissed at me because im a shia than anything . The only downer in that email was that ayesha has tried to email/chat with almost everyone whose contact was in my email account . If she has been throwing everyone’s emails to everyone as sam put it , anyone with a weak stomach would freak out . Frankly I don’t know if she still has access to my old accounts or not but the chat was so demeaning that I was surprised how easy it was for sam to lay it all out so simply for this mystery girl . Sam literally handed her everything . With obvious notoriety if I might add . I wont be surprised if the people who I have been intouch with lately never write back to me . If sam can fall pray to this girl’s façade even though she knew me , anyone can . Yes nareeman you were right . I have been wrong in judging people all my life and I made a mistake again . I should also have guessed that ayesha was more a “sister in islam” fanatic than a friend to sam from the first email . Though I feel I couldve warned her but right now ,I think, warning her would not have helped . The chat was a perfect specimen of someone on the back foot with lot of doubts against someone who knew very little yet had the confidence that she could elicit a lot out of her victim . Sam handed ayesha her lifeline and her “sister in islam” saved the chat and probably emailed it to her brother first thing in the morning . Sam trusted this woman and she ruined her . I fail to understand if ayesha was after me or sam . I fail to understand why would sam be so vulnerable ? Didn’t she know better than to trust this woman . Didn’t she know that chats can be saved !!! .. hahahaha … We have been played by someone who none of us know .I admire this mystery friend of sam’s .


Huma was very apprehensive about it all . She didn’t like it one bit . Ofcourse , how would you feel if someone appears out of no where , wrecks your privacy and plays with your mind . The chat was so relative . The references were so general and sam played right into it . I wish sam had the guts to tell me that she erroneously exagerated things .


I have wished sam best of luck and I hope she understands everything someday . For that matter , who knows that what I understand is right or wrong . Sam’s alibi can only be family and nothing else … and for that she gets the benefit of the doubt . I have deleted the entry for now but I will post it again because it happened and it has made me look at things differently . I cannot start listing the things that sam couldve done to stop this maniac who abhors shias . But sam didn’t know . Sam mentioned something about wahabiz .i didn’t understand it either . I don’t know whats going through her head right now but she seemd only concerned about her name and that I have taken care of . I will repost it and edit it . Having said that ,I cannot help but feel that if huma doesn’t stand up for herself , she will be pulled in this abyss by ayesha like sam was . However since huma’s broughtup is a lot more unorthodox , she might be able to fend ayesha off . Only time will tell . Others im afraid are on their own . Its for them to read and try n figure out whats happening .


My host came in after 5 . By that time ,my head was spinning . But I had to make her rehearse .Now ‘sister in islam’ honey , the word “rehearsed” means we sat in a room with a table between us . Away from each other and just incase your pervert mind is wondering , my host wont listen to you cause ure an islamic radical and she’s an orthodox christian . hah . Damn … you just missed out on another one of your victims . Khair … We worked on the script till 9 . Earlie that day , sabeen had called that nadia subhani’s mangni is happening and that I have to be there no matter what .It had already been a long day . I had not much left in me but nadia was a neat chick and I had to be there .I left for home around 9 . Got home . Showered . Prayed .Searched frantically for something to wear .Tried to press the kurta . Wore is aisayhee . Got to the venue at 10:05 cause sabeen had said that she’d be there at 9:00 . Sabeen came at 11:30 . By that time , I had ranted , whined and smoked . Didn’t know anyone there . Felt like weeping . I guess it was the whole day . Tiring . Draining . Every ounce of my energy today was used to help someone or the other . Made forms for shehla , not my task . Made budget for zaheer khan , not my task . Helped Natash not my task . And for a moment I just wanted someone to break a hammer on my head . I hadnt eaten since morning . I have communication problems and this adds to everything . Khair sabeen came around 11:30 . Couldn’t complain . Had already complained to a friend . Chatted with her . She asked about sam . Didn’t tell her anything ..All the time wishing , praying silently for a power failure so that I could slip out quietly . People caked in makeup . Weird .Food was served . Sabeen left .


Met sabeen after a long time and she’s lost a lot of weight . High . no progress on the Script . low .Host is progressing . High . Email threat to huma . Low . Ayesha’s reference to shiaism .High .Ayesha’s reference in huma’s email to a shia girl I know . Low . Sam’s Chat . High (Eye-Opener) . Bad Kababs at mangni . Low . Nadia’s mom calling me beta . High . Oh and Salma’s email . High .