Stuck in an emotional spiral,
spinning around and around,
down and down.
Pulling with me all your words.
I see a lie,
even though told to protect me from harm,
I let it pollute the rest of your words.
I know not why.
I want to know the truth, how it really was,
but this I do,
for I was there and yet this feeling pervades.
I struggle until depressed, for won't let go,
of my need to know.
Even though I can never comprehend,
the choices of an other.
I crave to know,
there must be an explanation that will satisfy this fire inside me.
I need to know,
NOW !
I need to know, how.
I need to know, why.
I feel this so complete,
I must have all the insides, from your head.
It grows and grows,
like a fire out of control,
sometimes the flames die down for a while,
but then an action or memory,
will bring them back to life.
At the seat of this fire,
is my Obsession to know.
This obsession is all encompassing it will devour me hole.
I will implode and become a black hole,
dragging everything I ever loved into the darkness with me,
to be lost for ever.
When all I need to do is accept.
Accept I can not and need not know all.
Accept you for who you are and what you want,
and love you still.
Accept myself as I am,
have the courage to stand alone,
and love myself.
Accept the way things were and are now,
and be happy to share it all with you.
Accept that everything is happening the way it should,
for the enlightenment of all.
TODAY 
