Life is good . I survived the past week which is no less than a miracle . Somebody up there likes me .To me , not interacting is more valuable than to interact and be judged a soul different than the one that occupies me .


All in all … I had the big doctor’ appointment , we had to start packing again to move to a different house , phupoo is back from NJ for a while and she has been on my case to find someone ‘jo merya shehzaday ka ghar basay gee’ .. to quote her … sigh …then ofcourse there was the usual .. ill run myself through it all ..


This Saturday , I went to my old home back in nazimabad .I missed old time . I wanted to smoke and not go home . I had been putting in extra hours at the editing and I felt icky …I wanted to scream and go for a swim . I wanted to not worry about what ammi had said when she had called that morning . Between the citizenship issue , the moving the house issue , the health issue and the ‘you are alone beta’ issue , I didn’t know whether to tell her or not . so I didn’t .I have tried to resign from work once but I wanted to do it in such a manner that I leave with as little work behind as possible . Khair … that Saturday I wanted to disappear for a few hours . I called up K and found out that they had wrapped up after Kara . Then we went to Ali to pick some stuff all the way to Nazimabad . We stopped the car on the main road and I ran all the way to my old home . I felt like the 15 year old who would be found caught sneaking at 1 in the night . The rush of emotions was overwhelming .khair .. we moved ahead to the task at hand .


The next morning circumstances were a little dramatic . I was told by Doc that I needed to chill and not work which was not possible because I had to pack for we were yet again moving to a new place ... To make a long story short , my father was here from US and he sorta didn’t like the house . He vetoed everyone and issued an ultimatum . We now have to move again .Nothing sad about it .Its just that I do not have the patience to understand these things now .Its just too majestic a piss off now .


The metroblogging meet-up was fine and dandy . The long day was coming to an end .I had met someone in the morning who told me that there was a lot that I had been missing at work interms of gossip especially what some of my ‘friends’ had to say about one night we spent at AK’s house . There was someone at this sleepover who I considered important nay Family . My only mistake was that I finally gave in to all the rhetoric and decided to trip . I did and next thing you know so much was held against me that I couldn’t believe when I head part of the grapevine . This coming from someone who I consider family was in my books uncalled for . I do not plan to confront anyone is this context nor do I plan to contest this character assassination . I will keep to myself .No biggie . Just as I was thinking all of this …awab called . I thought for a moment and decided .. what the heck .So I landed at the second Karachi Metro Bloggers meetup . Altamash was the same . Umar had gained some weight . He could’ve easily passed on for a lead guitarist for an upcoming boy band . Rest were new .I knew I needed to unwind . Ammi’s phone call was not too flattering aswell . I ave started contemplating going back to US again .Sigh ..


To wrap up , all is good . Suddenly my desire to be understood exists no more .Oh and congrats saadi on the engagement khabr .. .. Work is piling and I have to make bail . I will disappear from the scene again, very soon .I have to admit I am a little disappointed about the whole AK Sleepover episode .I do not understand why I feel the urge to be around people . But it’ll all come together . I know I still haven’t understood how to go about this life but I feel there is something I have ignored over the past few weeks . Something that I need to work upon . As Einstein once said , “Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former.” .. I wonder if he was referring to me .