All the things we would've talked about but couldnt b/c i didnt pick up ure books when u dropped them infront of me that day when we collided infront of the main dorm b/c i was stareing at this girl from The Pharmacy department and ofcourse u were looking for the girls room b/c ure friend Aaliyeh told u that there was an unattended flock of hair on ure forehead .
F.A.Q. Frequently Annoying Questions
Your picture's all white and stuff . What the f*#&'s wrong with it ? I have Sheeda Tallee , the notorious lone shark of Karachi looking for me . I owe him 10 rupees char aanay . I had to put in a misleading picture.
What's your REAL Name , adddress ,e-mail address and cell number ? Ask me three times and i'll tell you :) ...
You Nickname(s) ? Zeeke , Kaddu , Ooay
Occupation ? Master's Student at the University of Karachi.
Pets ? Had two pets actually .. Duke was a brown Pointer . Abbu gave him away during my days away from home , Aanie was a siamese who died last year due to some illness ... Currently looking for a pet . If you wanna give away yours lemme know ....
Eye color :
Dark piercing Brown
Facial ID mark :
a small mark near the brow. Got it when i fell on a dhool in a wedding when i was 5 ..
Tattoos :
Yeah right ....
Favorite food:
Anything but Karaila.
Life threatening accidents ?
Search through my entries for Abbasi Shaheed ( i think ) and u'd end up with entries where i describe these accidents. I kinda like em .. Anyways what do U care ?...
Favorite Movie(s):
Forrest Gump, Jerry Maguire , Blade , Fight Club , Ever After etc
Favorite Restaurant:
Majeeday Ka Hotul
Favorite Drink: Tea ; strong.
Do you ever plan to get a degree ?
Awwwww ....U see i have unresolved issue with my teachers . Wanna know more ? Search for IRAQI and BALOCH from the 'entry search' option on the right and read em carefully .
Why do bad things happen to good people?
Well we could go into a huge philosophical debate, but the skinny is, IMHO, the universe needs a balance. Basically the Chaos/Order thing. When goodie goodie people are running around doing good deeds to make them feel better, CHAOS comes in and KNOCKS them down a peg or two.. just to keep them grounded.. I could site NUMEROUS historic examples, but that could be a topic of a forum.
What do you think is the most common thing people mis-understand about your ? They think im a Serial Killer .
What's your room like ?
I have one of the most uncomfortable chair's with an eight tier bookshelf on my right side (mostly wierd stuff)and a huge cupboard on my left. I own a PII and since i was cheated out of a processor fan , i have my CPU opened and facing the fan . Just beside the cupboard is a kachra table . It has anything from shoelaces , wristwatches to ashtrays , pens , coins keys etc....Behind me a a cloth hanger . the sole thing on it is a pair of punching gloves .Last time i saw the carpet , it was dark blue , Now its covered with clothes , newspapaers , visiting cards , pens , underwears and some stuffed toys ...
Biggest turnoff ?
Lies with Attitude
Biggest turn on ?
Justified Criticism
What would people be surprised to find out about you?
Umm . I'm a cry baby at times ...
Don't you think it's a little self absorbed thing to create a whole web site about yourself?
Close the damn browser .
Don't you think other people have better things to do than review your life?
Some do, some don't. I hope the ones who don't will enjoy the experience.
Are these FAQ's real? Did people really ask you these questions about your Diary?
Yes they are real, and they are asked frequently. But I am the only one who asks them.
What about the answers? Are they real?
No, the answers are completely made up.
How come you're not as funny as Umer Sharif? What's with that?
Its sad but true. He has a gift. I am cursed with moral seriousness.
Why have you created this site?
To see my life flash before my eyes, but then to ALSO have time to think about it. This seems much better than waiting for the final big Just Before You Die ; "life flashing before your eyes", which leaves no time for reflection, and during which you KNOW the end is going to be a downer.
Do you really believe your life flashes before your eyes when you die?
I hope so, and I particularly hope that the flashback includes the part where your life flashes before your eyes.
You seem to be holding a lot back, not telling the whole story. What kind of FAQ is that?
Not everything can be answered as simply as it can be questioned . Life is complex . All i'm trying to do here is to share myself with those who want to see life from a different perspective , ma'am .If you wanna know more go through the trouble and mail me instead of posting a message. I'll show you another world .
Do you have any regrets?
Yes .. but thats none of your business...
Are you Mouslem? Yes .
But you dont look like a terrorist ? No . You're right . I never thought of that .
So temme , what is your goal here with this diary ?
I seek to be a steady, calm, nonjudgmental observer of myself, and of the world. I probably find it harder to avoid self judgment and self criticism than to avoid judgment and criticism of others. As a result the practice of nonjudgmental description "before a worldwide audience" feels like a unique challenge, the highest level of self acceptance, and its successful accomplishment feels like a unique victory in my personal life struggle. I think that accepting myself and accepting others is deeply linked. I think that many people who hate others, ultimately hate themselves even more deeply, and that the practice of self acceptance is a path to other forms of love and community building. Perhaps I am testing that proposition.
So what DO you feel guilty about?
I reserve most of my guilt for people I have wounded personally.
Why have you started this FAQ?
I keep asking myself questions. Questions , i had to think about before i could answer them .And it occured to me that i need to make myself more available and warm . I cannot be the cold indifferent individual i have been for the past few years ...
TODAY 
