Well .. i thought that id break my S-E-L-F down for you because it can be difficult for you to make sense if you're here for the first time . Hell .. even those who have 'been' here have to try REAL hard to make something out of my writing .....


i was Born in Karachi in a small clinic called "Asim Clinic" . It is located in Nazimabad .


I played cricket just two doors away from where President General Pervaiz Musharaf lived when he was a kid!!! . When i met him back in 2001 december at the ITCN where i was shooting for PTV World , I told him that . We spoke for 10 minutes 'atlength' and he gave me his personal email address . He asked me about the lamp post where he used to sit and study during power blackouts . He hugged me and we both were quiet for a moment . I was sad and i guess so was he . He because he missed old times . I because I felt bad that i made him sad .


I didnt really notice the stuff going on in my home until the day my aunt died .


Things changed quickly . My granny blamed me and mummy for her death .Then Abbu went back to US for his business . From there he expanded to Muscat.


Amman (granny) died om October 25,1995 and thankfully at my aunt's home.If she were to die at our house , Mummy wouldve been blamed for that too although my aunt(Shameem) did try to blame this one on ammi tooo.I hate for her the agony she has caused my mother .


Abbu comes back from US.Wanted me to study Science .I opted for Administration . He kicks me out of the house and i find myself working to eat , sleep , clothe and educate myself .


Surprisingly i managed all of it but my teenage experiences have taught me a lot . Now after almost 6 years of this and much more I feel that ive done pretty well ...


Anyways now About my diary .. .. This is just an attempt to break loose . Dunno if i'll succeed or not . Only time will tell .... I own other diaries aswell . Infact check em out if you like . The are islamonline , mohammad , kahlilgibran , maulaali , thequran , khair and factors . These are enough for now . Maybe ill tell you about others when u know what concerns me most . Then we can be concerned together .


If you are looking for anything in particular , search for it . I have a search page for you guys as well. This will search my entries for a particular word or phrase .See im sooo sweet !!! .


I went to this site which claimed to reveal my true self .. I didnt like what came out . May be it was all too real Or the fact that it had 'waaaa' written all over it made me uncomfortable . this is what they said about the silence .


My music preferences keep changing from time to time . As of last week , ive been listening to Paki music mostly . Guess i felt Desi Desi . But i do listen to a very diverse variety of music . Actually anything that i feel i can relate to becomes an obsession . Same goes for music .


Before this template , Ive had a lot of borrowed/stolen or self-made templates . Actually when im not doing anything , i decide that i should mess up my diary ... hehehehe ... Anyways these are some of my older templates . I dont have all of them but here's all of whats left .


Ok now a time waster .. I have some pics aswell .. duhhh ... i mean ones that u can see or atleast try and see ... heheh ... check em out if you dont have anything better to do .. But dont tell me that i didnt warn you !!


A list of frequently annoying questions are here aswell . This is where the Silent King opens up to his people . Behold !! the truth is revealed . Actually if you read em properly .. you might find stuff about me that even my friends have no idea about ...


Ive made it a point to be explicit about everything .. atleast in this diary . So i ve been joining rings that reflect my preferences and attributes .Unfortunately i cannot start any b/c im not a Gold memeber . sniff sniff ...


Lemme tell u about this one although i still havent made this page . A man's life is so complicated . So many people . Different attitudes . Explicitly diverse relationships if you really ponder about it . It all boils down to how YOU take it as . Its either the abyss OR the struggle towards the lil light ahead .... I too have been immensely influenced by these souls around me . Family , Friends , Net buddies & others .. some of them dont even know this . But once i was with them and something struck me so profoundly that i just had to acknowledge it . This is a tribute to these wonderful people . Thankyou all for being there when you were even without realising it .


Ego satisfaction time !! Ofcourse you didnt think id work this hard on my diary and wont get it reviewed . They're not all in yet but im working on it . Behold my reviews .


The guestbook is there aswell .Be nice to me . Or you can mail me if you want .Finally if you want you can leave me a note here if you want .


Got a Slambook recently . Check it out . Its really for my own good . It'll help me find out STUFF about me . I Probably wont like what i find but that has never stopped me before so why now . Infact be a pal and fill my slambook .


Listen Buddy !!! Ive worked hard on this diary and like hell id be mad if you dare steal any of this stuff . So in order to further scare the crap outta ya .. i have my copyrights reserved © 2003.


And last but not the least .... Dont forget to bookmark me. It'll be nice to see you back again . And do tell me what you dislike about all of this ...


more coming soon ....